Monday, November 28, 2011 // 2:54 AM
It's been awhile since i've been on this blog. Mostly since i have tumblr and twitter and other accounts now.
But it doesn't beat the privacy i can get here now, since no one, and i mean NO ONE would read this blog anywhere.
It's like a diary available for people to read, but you just can't find.
First thing:
I can't stand when people openly flame others. This fucked up public discrimination is the sort of thing that no one should have to endure. It's not as if they did anything to you directly right? What or who gives you the bloody right to say such things about people? Even if you DO feel like you truly hate the other party, you could insult them privately or something right? Not do it in places where the person can see it. Unless you WANT the person to see it, then you're a plain sadist. You don't know how it feels to be flamed in public do you? That kind of public declaration of hatred towards you. The feeling that no one in the world wants to be your friend, wants to stick around for you, or even wants to be associated with you. Do you have any idea how much it hurts? To go into some familiar place, but feel like you don't know anything or anyone there? It's like going into a home, full of strangers you can't trust or talk to.
I also want to re-declare how lonely it gets when i have to remember you. When people remind me of you. When they keep saying how similar i am to you. I hate it. I hate to be reminded. I hate to remember everything. Why can't i forget? I know i say this again, and again. I hate repeating this. I hate replaying everything in my head.
Let me forget. Please.
